I'm doing it. I'm finishing this site if it kills me.
In all honestly, a huge motivator for me to even make this site is my absolute disdain for social media and algorithms and whatever the heck else.
Like instagram's tagging system drives me nuts, twitter has got to be the worst site for artists by far, deviantart is doing whatever it's doing...Not to mention the sheer lack of total customization (aside from tumblr I guess??).
I just like that this is my own little corner of the internet and I can basically do whatever I want with it lol. Call me oldschool, whatever, I don't care XD.
I am trying so hard to get the code working for the way I want the gallery section to be. But my god it is proving to be hella difficult. I'm actually pretty frustrated writing this XD Honestly think I'm at my limit today and gonna do something else.
In other news, bebbu's friend decided to show up unnannounced? So, I'm just kinda sitting here chilling staring at my code lmao
Also last night someone out in the world was burning a LOT of garbage. All night. Like literally I went to bed, and woke up, and it was still going. My throat hurts lol.
Just wanna say that this entire ranfren saga has been insane LOL.
I wrote another email to my dad, asking if he's alright and to clarify that in my response to his novel email I didn't mean to sound judgemental or offensive. I guess I got worried cause he hadn't responded to me for a while and worried if I hurt his feelings lmao.
Well he said he's fine and wasn't planning on responding. So... yeah I dunno what the point of all that was oh my goodness. I wasted soooo much time writing a response to his email for basically nothing XD
Dude, yesterday my dad sent me this huuuge long ass email going on about Trudeau (PM of Canada) and Putin and the covid mandates and my god I don't caaaaare lol.
The best part is I didn't even ask anything about this? He just like.... wrote a novel, without prompt. I really think this guy needs to write a book or something. XD Well he has nobody else to talk to, and clearly had a lot to get off of his chest.
So last night I had to visit the local clinic, which is kind of like a mini hospital too? idk Anyway I has having like severe abdominal pain to the point I couldn't really move or walk or anything. My husband was worried it could be appendicitis.
it was going on for hours so finally we just dragged my ass to the clinic at around 9 pm. i got put in a room with 3 beds and the doctor came and checked me and then they decided to hook me up to an IV for some kind of pain treating fluid lol. The nurse started putting on some gloves and then I was like shit I'm allergic to latex, so we told them and they decided to proceed, without gloves. Breh.
and holy shit, the nurse trying to put the needle in my arm was having a rough time. It was THE most painful IV needle I've ever had to endure. Also for some reason she was doing it like... on the.. top side of my wrist? It was so weird lmao.
Anyway she couldn't get it to work so another nurse came and put a new one on my other hand like a normal human being. That one kinda hurt too but dude, the first one was brutal lol.
I started having a panic attack cause my husband left for a little bit to go talk to the receptionist to fill out my info, and the whole being hooked up to an IV was freaking me out cause I was like "omg is this actually serious am i gonna die" I've had IVs several times in my life and none of them really bothered me, but this time was really scary u_u;;
Anywaaaay I just kinda lied there for a long time. On one of the other beds was some 2-3 year old kid who had eaten soap and some Pinol (some kinda pine based heavy duty floor cleaner) of all things. Not sure what they were doing to her but she was screaming her face off which was really hard to listen to. My heart goes out to that kid, really hope she's okay now.
Eventually another doctor came and I was transported via wheelchair to a different room and promptly given an ultrasound.
I am pleased to report that nothing is seriously wrong with my internal organs. They did however, find some kind of loose fluid around my ovaries or something, which is abnormal but not serious I guess.
Went back to the original room with the beds, another doctor came and started pressing around my stomach area. Still was hurting a lot, so despite the ultrasound he said he can't rule out appendicitis just yet. I lied on the bed some more and the pain died down quite a lot. I guess the meds kicked in? xD
They decided I could go, so we went to the receptionist area and she was like "it's 2000 pesos". Well shit man, we only had 1500 or so xD. So my husband asked if he could go home and get more money while I waited there and she was like "yeah okay".
So yeah I sat there waiting on the couch all zonked out from medication and just being really really tired cause it was around 2 am at this point.
Apparently my husband was running home and the freakin cops stopped him lmao. They asked where he was going in such a hurry and he just said he had to go to the clinic and they were like ohh okay carry on. He came back, payed for my visit and we slowly walked home.
And after all that, I got an allergic reaction from the tape they used to keep the needle in my hand xDD
You ever redesign a website and look at your old code and wonder what you were thinking?
Yeah that's me right now lol
Last few days has been doing nothing but working on this site as much as I can I also did a LOT of cooking yesterday for some reason.
Seriously I made guacamole, carrot-zucchini cake, some kinda chicken with peppers and corn thing, and a HUGE thing of dough which I used to make cheesy bread. I blended up some lettuce and leftover carrots / zucchini and used it to make the dough cause I didn't want the lettuce to go bad and I know that sounds really weird but it's honestly freakin delicious xD.
Froze the rest cause there's seriously so much idk what happened lmao. You know what happened? I didn't follow a damn recipe that's what!
Also lately my husband has been working on making a.... enclosure in our yard, for our kitties. We got a bunch of wood and chicken wire and it's starting to look really nice actually :D
Our kitties constantly wanna run away, which honestly wouldn't be too much of a problem, but unfortunately we live in a bit of a rough neighbourhood atm and it's quite dangerous ._. There's also a lot of other crazy cats around here and we don't want anyone to get hurt. Honestly this is for the best. He also installed some wooden platforms on a tree with a little house on top, so they have something to climb on. Well they seem to like it anyway xD
My next goal is to get our plants looking a litle nicer. And maybe get some more? Apparently it's time to start planting seeds! I'm excited. I tried planting vegetables last year and well, basically all of them died due to various circumstances.
I dunno shit about gardening haha. I've just started composting so I'm hoping this year will go better. Also gotta look into natural pesticides, and figure out a way to keep the kitties from digging in the dirt xD
Anyway, back to work!
It's been a long time since I touched this site (again lmao)!!
Also very late, but happy new year to anyone reading this! I hope it was a good one for you :D
Actually I don't know what to say, but I would like to make a goal this year to update here more often. Maybe get things more organized, do more journal entries, who knows lol.
I am working here and there on a new layout for this site, it's just going very slowly. Originally in January of this year I had planned to use the month to catch up on a huge back log of art I have.
Lately I've started using a planner to get organized with my art. Even though January wasn't as productive as I would have liked, I still did catch up on a fair amount. I'm hoping this month will be good and I'll get lots done!
Really need to work on my organization skills to not let this happen again in the future. There's many things I wanna do, and being stuck with a huge back log of art forever isn't one of them xD. I love drawing art for you guys but I really wanna draw my own ocs and stuff too ya know? :3
Anyway will talk later! This time I think I'll put a reminder on my calendar to actually make a journal entry here ^^
Today for dinner I made veggie pancakes! I love this shit, they're super fluffy and savoury and uhh healthy I think?? xD
Yesterday my husband and I went out to go get cat food and some other necessities. It's a bit worrying these days because more people are out now that more stores and the parks are open again. The driver of the bus we got on was telling people he's sick and that they absolutely need to have a mask to even get on the bus. After getting off we totally doused ourselves in hand sanitizer lol.
For some reason we cannot find cat litter anywhere??? Like I dunno who's buying it all, or if the stores aren't re-stocking properly. Last week apparently there was 4 packed shelves of it in one store, and now there's absolutely none anywhere xD. The cats are starting to get used to just going outside, so i guess it's okay.
I finally got an email from my dad yesterday. Haven't heard from him in almost two months haha. You know, if I had a kid who was in another country during a pandemic, I'd be emailing them every week making sure they're okay. I'm starting to realize my parents probably don't really care about me that much ╮(︶▽︶)╭ I'm old enough now, I think it is time to move on with my life and focus on the important things.
I can't believe August is almost here. I haven't touched this place in a while lol. Been super busy trying to catch up on this huge back log of art I've had for a long time now. My life these days is literally wake up, make coffee, tidy up and then proceed to draw for 10+ hours xD.
That said, I am really grateful to have so much art to draw. Everyone's ocs and stuff has been very lovely so far.
Yesterday I opened up ko-fi commissions! I only put 5 slots cause I didn't think anyone would really care but they all sold out haha. Spent the day working on those.
Anywaaay I have a lot more art to do but I also need to maintain my sanity and health. Maybe one of these days I'll fiddle with this website again lol.
My husband says he misses me these days while I'm working a lot. Now I'm starting to feel a bit sad and guilty for drawing so much.... I don't wanna neglect other aspects of my life. It's a good time to reflect and try to find balance in our lives.
I hope whoever reads this has a good day and stays safe and healthy during these crazy times.
I think I'm getting sick again lol. Yesterday was pretty brutal, I thought I got food poisoning from the night before or something, but I still feel bad today? My whole body hurts more than usual, my head is spinny, really nauseous, though I don't think I have a fever. dunno where my thermometer is rn so I can't check xD. I kind of just slept all day yesterday, maybe I should do that again today haha.
Also I've been working on another side website lately! It's for stuff that doesn't really suit my art site here.
Other than that, just trying to catch up on all these patreon drawings ٩(◕‿◕｡)۶
Yesterday we went to the store to get some vegetables and bread and because of the quarantine only one person per family or group is allowed to go in the store. My husband asked if I wanted to go in since he wasn't sure what I wanted to get, and I was like yeah. I went in and got the stuff and lined up to pay. And then the lady at the till kinda yelled at me cause she was asking how many breads were in my bag and I thought she was asking how many bags I wanted and I said the wrong number xD. I almost told her I don't speak spanish and wanted to apologize but I kinda started panicking and could barely talk. Anyway it was okay in the end but I cried the whole way home and had a panic attack lmao. u_u;;;
Well I beat myself up a lot for not knowing more spanish that I can't even have a basic conversation... but I know learning a language on your own can be pretty challenging. It was really motivating to learn more though. My husband told me to just start talking as much spanish as I can to him so i can practice.
Though next time if I go to the store I'm just gonna stick with things that have a bar code haha...
oh yeah do you guys wanna see our baby cats we're looking after xD well here's 3 photos because the other one is pretty elusive and I need to take a better photo of him. He's black so kinda hard to show up on camera sometimes >w>;;
I guess if I were to write a blog entry here I would just say I spent the morning trying to cook chickpea tofu and then figuring out something to do with the leftover fibres lol.... and it turns out you can make veggie burgers from that shit so ye that's what I'm gonna do.
Here's the recipe I used!!
And then the afternoon was spent working on this website :D And I've still gotta work on artwork for people. Not sure how im gonna catch up actually ~_~ but uhh... i will get there haha ;;; also my husband is studying programming for unity cause he wants to make a game so that's pr cool ayy
Okay do y'all ever watch Chinese cooking videos cause let me tell you the subtitles are priceless
I'm just testing here lol. Uhh here's some flowers because why not :D
Sometimes I write here about things going on in my life.
Not the most exciting thing in the world, but feel free to read if you're